This article explores how the tensions that grow out of being a researcher in my community of queer Asian Americans lead to the formulation of a different kind of ethnographic approach. A hybrid notion of identity can require and inform a hybrid or poststructural ethnographic practice. This hybridized research method draws upon theoretical strands from queer theory, discourse analysis, and feminist psychoanalysis. This author highlights some thorny and contradictory challenges for queer researchers doing work in their own communities. The article concludes with an approach to the writing of research data and analyses that attempts to undercut coherent realist representations in an effort to make visible the contradictions, gaps, and inconsistencies. (Contains 1 note.)