Neoliberalism permeates U.S. teacher education programs and governmental policy, consequently increasing market pressure in teacher education and stunting the development of justice-oriented teacher educators. In this self-study, we explored how four female early-career teacher educator researchers (FECTERs) navigate this context. Our arts-based study revealed struggles with our principles, bodies, and futures in a neoliberal teacher education environment. We argue that demarginalizing FECTERs' experiences in research and practice supports efforts to center justice and equity in teacher education.