This article explores lived experiences and insights of five people with long-term "mental health problems", focusing on their search for employment in a disabling society. In our qualitative, inductive analysis we investigate why it seems almost impossible to attain a status as respected adult workers. We present five central findings: (1) losing the game before it starts; (2) internalizing the vicious circle of victim blaming; (3) from control overload to a life with inadequate supports; (4) from crushed dreams back to passive inactivity; (5) signs of resilience and resistance. In meaningful dialogue survivors give voice to alternative and plural epistemological grounds of life with "madness". In our concluding reflections we argue that psychiatric discourses, what we term toxic psychiatric orthodoxies, silence, disable and construct survivors as unemployable.